Sometimes, walking away means the exact opposite.

This feeling is just like i've lost almost everything important to me. I can name the 3things which is most important to me. My family, you and you. Yea maybe i mean nothing at all to you. With or without me, there isn't a difference. You'll still be enjoying your life living it to the fullest. Well it isn't for me. There is a huge difference, and i don't like it. I think i really am tired, i'm tired of everything. I'm scared. I'm scared to try, i'm scared to ask for, i'm tired of pretending i don't feel anything. Sometimes i feel so used, just like everything about me is just an extra piece.

Never Easy

The only one who has made me learn so much about everything, reality. The only one who brought me to hell, killing me with misery and bringing me to my worst state. But also made me feel a care, joy, strength, trust and more love than any love you can feel in the world.

This is the man i love.

Well be

Everything outdated as usual.

This was quite sometime back, at copthorne king's not corpthorne haha, and i think aloha loyang.

I LOST MY MYSELF BECAUSE OF YOU.

PEOPLE PUT THEMSELVES IN AND TRY SO HARD TO PROVE HOW MUCH THEY CARE ABOUT SOMEONE.


YOU'RE SPECIAL, YOU PUT YOURSELF SO HIGH UP AND TRY YOUR VERY HARDEST,
TO SHOW THAT YOU DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME.

All

I'm not exactly a very lucky person, but i guess i just have to start learning to see the other side.

There are so much that i have to feel so troubled and worried for and about, but i can't let a single piece out of me. Just so much, too much. I wonder why has God even place me in this kind of a situation, be it one or two, three or even ten things to ruin me, i will be grateful. But for me, it is never ending, it keeps coming, from bad to worst, and i swear i hate it. I think i have been nice to everyone i have met so far, unless you're the unlucky few who got my other side, you must have done something. I have always been patient, yes i have been. There are people i can choose to fuck them up so bad because you really get me on my nerves all the time. But i'm sorry friends, i don't know how long more can i hold this up. Please know your limits. I have too much happening in my current life, and i'm just afraid your little shit would really get me going mad. I hereby apologise before anything happens. Please don't bother asking me why am I in such an emotional deep shit thing. I'm sorry if you're gonna hate me because of this fustrated person i am, but please remember, i did give in to you when you were too much. I can already come up with a few names while thinking about people who make use of me and think i don't see a shit because i'm just plain nice to you so i don't have to be arguing in some worldwar. But i'm not looking for arguments or i would have fucked you up long ago then making peace. Please pray for me, pray for my life, everything, i need prayers.

As for the close ones and bestfriends, thanks for standing there for me always, i guess you guys are the one i truely need to walk through this tough period of time. I will still continue to blog with pictures and smiles, but please do remember that deep inside of me you have no idea what i'm going through.

Missed

Unposted pictures, super outdated. Well, i have to blog because people are starting to bug me. And classmates have all been really caring since i've been missing for a week, the least expected ones too.

So, random pictures here and there.

THIS WAS THE DISASTROUS FACIAL.





i just have this something for blackpepper.

LOL.


for lyn.

Okay so, things have been or should i say it will be better? Talking is always good, but when it comes to action, i think i never once met that from you. Ahhhh, anyway.

Yesterday's princess lyn's birthday 'SURPRISE' was like epic fail. The mini cake we went to got from emi cake which was expected to taste atas, turned out to be shit. Ya, just tell me how the fuck does mango relate to coffee.

Will elaborate more after the official celebration on how CB the present surprise failed, but lyn, they wanna make you itch till saturday hahaha, few more hours!

No happy birthday until you get all the official pictures and celeb :)